18 weeks + Ragnar Rainier
For a lot of my life I’ve wanted to be a mom, it felt like a part of my future identity. When we started dealing with infertility that became part of my identity instead.
“Congrat-dolenes” - 14 Weeks
It’s really odd to me that people feel the need to “knock you back into reality” when you tell them good news. Why do people feel the need to tell you all the horrible things you are in for? I don’t get it.
Uncomfortable
I’ve spent the last 5+ years intentionally avoiding expectant couples and especially the pregnant person so to now be one of those pregnant people and be expected to just fit right in to that community feels…uncomfortable.
They are “ahead” of me
At first I hesitated to write that story but then I had to remember that I’m telling my perspective and my story, not trying to tell theirs. I also want to remember and change the story of people being “ahead” of me or “behind me”. That’s just not how life works.
9 Week Ultrasound
There have been some things that have come up (emotionally) so it’s time for another blog post. Time to do some processing.
7 Week Ultrasound
Fear of disappointment is such a big part of my life. It has been for a while. I didn’t used to be like this. I used to truly see the silver lining on everything. And now…I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop.